Your photographic memory came to life
The moment you saw him
And those,
Those
Echoes of touch
Erupt inside your mind
Every time you
Close your eyes.
Palpitations resume.
Fingertips recall
Lips warm.
And senses remember first encounter,
Impressions from skin kissing skin.
Want
And the pull
Of
It all
Generating lack of gravity.
Yet
Where were you going after all?
Nothing existed before this merging,
Before the initial gasp.
No sound mind here.
Spellbound.
I am an
Awakening star
In response to your
Lightest touch.
Your magic stays within me
Where you have left it
For my pleasure
Alone.
I wonder if solitary trees
Ever get lonely.
I imagine their roots going great
Lengths beneath our feet to
Reach,
To touch
One
Another.
Sensing the need through
Distance and dreams to feel,
To entwine wholly.
Many hours
Even music cannot fill the darkness.
So in silence I sit,
In silence
I am full.
Many days my heart is too heavy,
My sight barricades itself
I have not the strength to lift
My
Pen and place it to paper
Or my eyes to sunlight.
I sit in darkness.
In darkness I rest.
And I sink
Beyond my knees to earth.
Beyond touch of hand
Or restless thoughts
Where I lie.
For I do not even whisper there,
I do not not even cry.
The first chord
And I am taken back
To days
Gone by.
Mamma cooking in the kitchen with
Her favorite apron on.
Her cheeks rosie
And heart full.
Dad sitting back on the couch,
A big grin on his face.
Christmas records playing.
And laughter echoing
Through our
Tiny trailer insulated in snow.
Neighbors, friends and family crammed in every nook
As we celebrated
The holiday season.
(cigarette smoke filled the air and alcohol flowed amidst the peaceful chaos)
We could not help but touch for there
Was no room to hide.
We did not have much
But we had each other.
Ups and downs,
Good and bad.
We wore our love without shame.
Our humanness on the inside reaching out.
Pulling each other through the endless
Cold winter nights.
Each of us our own shade of light
Together creating a beacon to keep
Warm.
We magnified each others hearts with love.
If I begin to weep
Be most certain
It is only because
I am overwhelmed by the
Beauty
Of
Your love,
The truth in your touch.
I tremble internally
At your touch.
My body sings,
It cries.
I cannot speak.
Your name is
My heartbeat
Itself.
I close my eyes
I feel you there.
Every atom of you
Merging with mine.
And here is bliss
Beyond any
Knowing we have
Felt.
The endless ache is no longer.
Someone told me
The people who did these things to me are not here anymore.
They can no longer hurt me.
Why this did not occur to me before,
I do not know.
Maybe because i still hear their
Voices.
Maybe because every sense and nerve in me reacts to
Certain noises and movements as if those people are still in the same room with me;
I feel the ghost of their touch.
I am ready to let them go now;
To see them, to feel them fade
Away into nothingness.
They can no longer keep
Their
Invisible grip
Because you cannot
Imprison
Peace.
You cannot hold love captive.
I am no longer fear,
I am love
And love is free.
You.
With a glance.
Fingertips brush so light.
Set my whole
World ablaze.
Burning sun;
White night moon.
I cannot control the rythm
Of my own heart.
Oh
Pull me into your electric storm.
I will breathe once more
When I feel you
Take hold of me.
Our eyes meet
Pulses quicken
Touching
Breath deepens
Kisses stirring
Our skin weeps
Frenzied
Fevered
Consummation divine
Now
Melding within
Chole Into Diamonds 