I cried for you
The tears you denied yourself.
Knowing what you had been through.
What you will endure.
Because I know the face you keep from the sun.
I know the heart you keep undone.
The face I have always loved.
The heart I have always loved.
Always.
When will you get it
In your mind
Girl?
He leaves you
Behind
Every
Time,
Yet
Still you follow.
Still you follow.
And still they flow,
Your
Hollow
Tears
Of
Hope.
For the first time
Ever,
The tears ran evenly down
Her cheeks.
Seems one side had always
Been
Holding back.
Afraid to be seen.
I awoke with a loneliness in my gut.
My face
Damp with tears I must have cried
In a nightmare.
I turned to my side
And
Set my sight
On the light
Fighting to filter through those
Dusty,
Lifeless
Curtains covering my window.
And I knew
Come what may,
The only way
That soul healing light was ever going
To shine on me
Was if I got up and opened those
Curtains
Myself.
I have kept every letter that you wrote.
I must confess,
I read them from time to time.
My heart swells
As I remember well
Your words even before
The papers unfold.
I grasp them as if they are you,
And hold them to my breast.
It is as though
Doing so might bring you back.
My tears flow.
How I wish you
Had known
How deeply my love was returned.
There you stood
Looking at the clouds
Talking to yourself out loud
When you believed
No one was around.
I saw you standing there
The smile gone from your face.
Lost in a dream.
Lost in a lifetime
And space.
And my heart ached
As I recognized
Myself in you.
She stood in the doorway
With her back to the sun
Knowing this was
The last
Time
She would see him.
And her heart filled with
Sorrow
Though her soul
Was at peace.
And her eyes filled with tears.
They fell to the floor
As she stood in the door
With her back to the sun.
She had nothing left
To prove.
Nothing left to hold.
Only the truth she would carry as
She turned and walked away.
Looking forward
For the first time
She could remember
To the light of a new day.
Never again would she turn her back to the sun.
She cried tears
Believing she had been separated from
Mother Earth
Until,
Upon
Waking a memory long lost,
She recalled
The dust
The streams
The rocks
And the ocean,
The mountains
The clouds
The wind and the rain
All remain within her.
I don’t know how much time has passed
Since you went away
Leaving me with my face
Pressed up against the glass.
My
Tears
Reaching,
Trying desperately to collide with the raindrops.
Let the storm come over me.
Soak my soul
In tears.
Shake my heart to pieces
With
Thunder from the sky.
Let the lightening
Ignite this love that’s
Been slumbering
Inside
Behind these mighty walls.
Fill me up,
It’s been so long since I’ve
Felt whole.
Hold me close
I’ve been so alone.
I don’t know
Where these dreams
Are going to go.
I don’t know how,
But they are coming to life now.
Chole Into Diamonds 