I step mindfully on the rivers edge
As to not stumble and fall.
The water is very patient in this, its journey,
To shape the earth whether a drop or
A cascade.
I must stop and steady myself if I wish to lift my gaze to the heavens.
I hear a thousand voices in the winds.
Even the eagles above and the river
Below join in the chorus of our ancestors;
It is always love.
Someone told me
The people who did these things to me are not here anymore.
They can no longer hurt me.
Why this did not occur to me before,
I do not know.
Maybe because i still hear their
Voices.
Maybe because every sense and nerve in me reacts to
Certain noises and movements as if those people are still in the same room with me;
I feel the ghost of their touch.
I am ready to let them go now;
To see them, to feel them fade
Away into nothingness.
They can no longer keep
Their
Invisible grip
Because you cannot
Imprison
Peace.
You cannot hold love captive.
I am no longer fear,
I am love
And love is free.
You hold yourself steady
As another wave rolls in.
Which is most frightening
When you feel it begin,
Knowing what lies between or what is at the end?
Invisible slips and invisible falls.
The faceless voices who taunt;
And from shadows
Call.
Going from gladness
(In deeper)
To sadness
(In deeper)
To madness
(In deeper)
To the darkness within.
The flesh feels alive and well
While the mind makes itself a home in
An unseen hell.
You are afraid of the way she leaves you
Reeling.
She can feel you.
See more than your skin.
Parts of you not one single heart has
Seen.
Or held.
No questions
Or explanations.
Just being.
You move to her without resistance
For there is none left,
Not even in your darkest parts.
The voices have hushed.
She has penetrated and annihilated the threat
For she is audacious.
Reached into them with her unspoken light
And held each one to her soul.
Singing them to sleep
Without destroying herself.
Now look.
Without fear there is only
Love.
Our voices,
They sing.
Our lungs,
They breathe.
Our feet
Walk along
The paths
Of dreams.
Our hearts,
They beat.
Our Souls,
They see.
Our hands,
They reach
For stars up in the heavens.
I woke up screaming.
I woke up gasping for air.
I woke up reaching for you
But you’re no longer there.
I spend my days in walking nightmares,
My nights searching my dreams.
I try to tame the voices in my head
But all they do is scream.
Chole Into Diamonds 