For those who
See the fear that paralyzes those
Traumatized
Mentally, physically and emotionally;
The ones who hear them;
Those that have no words left to express the fear, the doubt, the shame, the hopelessness;
You who take time to
Offer love, patience and stillness,
There is so much gratitude intangible;
You are not forgotten.
Because of your tender acts of kindness
Many have chosen to see another day.
Love.
Abused. Ill-treated.
Born into barbed wire boundaries.
Reiterate,
Reiterated
Over and over
How incapable one is
To even make a simple decision.
(Wrong. Wrong again)
To celebrate joyfully,
To make a sound could set fire to surroundings.
Destruction.
Loose track of truth as lies are the padding between
Being reprimanded physically
Or
Verbally.
Blurred lines
And confusion.
(Mock and shame)
How to interact;
Manipulation
False praises and head games.
How to explain
Voice crushed,
Airway blocked.
To whisper brought trembling
To body
And tears to brim
To which people yelled
“Speak up!
What is your problem?”
In my complacency
And desire to be loved
I, in a time past, allowed others
To tie
Their defintions
To my ankles,
My hands.
I allowed them
To obstruct my lips,
My breath
Until
Left
Ragged and strained
I fell to my knees
In shame.
In shame for what?
For simply being myself.
It is time to release the shame.
Something,
Someone planted the seeds and you unwittingly
Let them grow tenuous roots
Around your insides;
Behind your eyes.
Cut the source of the growth at the root
Feel it wither on its own.
Shame cannot flourish if you cease to nourish it.
It cannot grow without your attention.
Lift your eyes to your beauty.
You are living,
Breathing
Golden light.
My heart
Broke
Into a million more pieces.
As if it could break again.
I wiped the shame from my
Eyes
And upon seeing clearly,
Realized
My
Fullfilment
And
Desires in life
Would never be met
Beside
You.
Chole Into Diamonds 