I am running all over,

Falling apart.

People talk at me.

Their eyes darting

Anywhere else but mine

Looking for escape.

And I tell myself I am fine,

There is nothing wrong,

But every message I get from humans

All around

Is i am not.

And I choke back the tears sometimes

And I laugh out loud at myself

Sometimes.

And they walk on,

Walk on by

And I wish them love.

Nothing but love

Because I see their pain swirling around their hearts and minds.

And they still won’t look me in the eyes.

They turn away

And turn away again.

And I turn to the Angels

All around us

And thank them believing they see me.

I keep going and going

Knowing We are all here for a reason.

……

And

I need reminders

Today

Of

Hope

And strength.

My knees are weak

And

It feels as if a corset has been tightened

Around my ribs a

Cinch too tight.

Inhaling little bits;

Shallow and dizzy.

I am on a slippery slope.

Can’t seem to get a grip.

And what if one day

I just don’t have

Enough

Of me

To

Keep a hold of,

If i am not strong enough to fight myself?

Embrace.