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Mar18

Courageous

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She will try not to run.

She will try not to hide.

She will try not to turn away.

She will look you in the eye.

She will listen to you speak

Of her as if she is pretty

While voices scream otherwise in her head.

She will stay when you smile at her tenderly,

Every cell in her body desiring nothing more

Than to vanish.

Her heartbeat has been rendered immobile.

Artifacts from days gone by holding every

Ventricle hostage.

She is trying to be brave.

If you knew

How the earth shook beneath her feet

When she moved,

 How the thunder echoed in her ears

When she tried to speak

You would

Realize just how courageous

She is.

Jan23

Run Away

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I let you see me.
I’ve let you in too
Close.
I……

Will run.

I
Must
Rush away
As fast as I can
And
Hide.
Turn my face
Away
And
Withhold the broken bits.
I just can’t do it.
I can’t let you
See
The inside,
Wasted
Pieces
Of me.
I will shove you away
With these two hands of mine.
I will shove you away
And a piece of me will die.
Inside.
I love you.
I love you,
You see
But you are not
Allowed,
In turn
To love me.
I’ll run away
And try to forget
That you ever touched me
That our souls ever met.

Jan8

Innermost Longing

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Here I sit.

I cannot sleep yet I am exhausted.

I want to laugh.

I want to cry.

I want to curl up in the closet.

I want to run beside the ocean.

I want to scream.

I want to sit atop a mountain and feel the wind in my hair.

Feel it stroke my face.

I want to dance and laugh and sing until I collapse.

I want to forget.

I want to stand tall, walk forward

And never look back.

I want my heart back in one piece.

I want to sleep and dream and I want to wake up feeling safe with a  smile in my heart.

I want to trust.

I want to let go and love,

Hold nothing back.

I want to lean and rest my soul.

I want to breathe.

I want to break the surface.

I want to revive my heart.

I want to give a piece of me without regret.

I want to break the chains my heart and mind have bound me in.

I want to sigh.

I want to cut the anchor and soar.

I want to speak softly and be heard.

I want to lie in a field of flowers and watch the clouds drift by and listen to the wind caress the trees.

I want to believe in myself.

I want to be.