I close my eyes and the light gets brighter. There I am centered and re-invite peace
Who then replies,
“Child I have never left, It is you who left.
What you choose you become.
Choose love.
Choose peace
Until there is no choice,
You simply are.”
There are soul matters at work here
You do not yet
Comprehend.
Have faith.
Welcome peace within and without
As you breathe,
With every thought
And each step.
Wonder awaits your discovery.
Love is only bound by the restrictions you believe and create.
It is up to you how
To proceed and when you
Wish to take responsibility for
Your own
Mind and heart.
Different rules in every mind.
Each crossing different lines that they deem acceptable exceptions,
Then getting angry when others
Do their own thing.
Always someone going faster,
Always someone going slower.
So many minds with so many thoughts on how it should be,
Arguing over who is right and who is kinder.
(if we could only hear ourselves arguing over who is kinder )
If we could only see ourselves puffing out our chests believing we have won.
This is not a game,
(Sometimes it feels like it has turned into one big game).
Who is smarter, who has it harder.
Everyone telling,
Very few listening,
Truly listening.
Many clamoring knowing
A little piece about so much.
An
Unawareness spread out into little bits.
A couple thoughts on this and that
Knowing nothing about nothing.
Anger rising without sense.
Few just let it be and see.
Few
Are comfortable enough with this journey to
Observe and listen
And Be.
There is always more to learn,
In turn becoming quieter.
Listen.
Overflow unbound.
Shine in infinite stillness.
Let your love
And strength in peace
Be bigger
Than anything else.
Yesterday.
What’s done is done.
This moment,
What is yet to come.
My mind keeps
Digging,
Burying
And wondering.
Remembering,
Creating
And forgetting.
Let sleep come none to soon
And carry me to dreamland
Where no one
Restrains these
Thoughts.
These imaginings and reminiscings in
Sweet, vivid colors
As I dance through fallen
And falling leaves in the deep
Magical forest.
Snowflake flurries.
My amusement and joy magnified
In kaleidoscopic colors and melodies.
Peaceful
Joy.
Peaceful breaths.
In the ache of loneliness
I learned to love myself.
In learning to love myself
I have found a peace
No human can offer.
She knelt in the snow and clasped her hands to her
Heart.
Her fragile voice began to talk to anyone
Who might be listening;
Gods
Angels
Ancestors
Eagles
Snowflakes.
“Why am i so slow,
So aware?
Why does my heart overflow with love,
Yet my body shy from all?”
In the the peace in the air between her breathes
She felt their reply.
“You suffered great trauma child.
You denied yourself validation of pain.
You rejected love of others
And refused to honor yourself.
Fear became imbedded in your cells.
They are rebuilding themselves
And are reemerging as light.
Holy light of love.
Be patient.
Accept the light. Accept the love.
Lift your gaze to meet yourself in
All your grace.
You can deny yourself being no more.”
And light became her as she opened her
Arms,
Her heart boundaries dissipated as
One became one.
There are no words to write.
No words to say.
That is okay.
There is more beauty than can be explained. There is more space between than can be fathomed.
More sense.
More healing.
Do not force what is not meant just to fill a space.
Let it be itself, let it be free, unchained.
Let it flow onward and away.
There is peace in nothing to say.
No more to add.
No more to take away.
Continue in stillness.
I walked on
And
I watched the
Eagles fly.
I hear the whoosh of the air
On their wings as they glide overhead.
The higher they go
The stronger my heartbeat.
And I heard the brush rustle
Nearby,
Turning just in time
To see 3 deer leaping into my path.
Alert and tentative.
For a moment I expect to see a predator on their heels.
But no.
And we gaze into each others eyes for what seems like time indefinite .
And i feel that whole lifetime of anxiety leave my bones.
Stillness fills my cells.
My mind clears and my heart swells.
Peace. I am as i am meant to be.
I find myself by the river where I immerse myself in nature’s song.
I become the water and the stones who mean
Each other no harm.
They merely add to the symphony.
As do I;
I know.
This is true.
I often think i am done
Whether sun
Or shadow fall on my face.
Even when a smile curves my lips
A battle may rage
Within;
This at any time.
I walk upon stone,
I walk upon dirt
Both hurt
When the weight is heavy.
Though i stand tall,
A smile curves my lips.
Each breath a blessing
As i fill my lungs with air,
As I stretch up to the sky with all my might
The weight gets lighter,
My feet less tender.
I look at my heart.
It has no boundaries
Nor my mind in fact.
Every cell,
Every atom
At peace if I allow it to be.
And so it flows through me,
And so I am.
Chole Into Diamonds 