You
Keep me coming around.
Whispering my name
Between
Heartbeats.
Tracing our
Silhouette
In the bliss.
Just close enough to feel.
This
Sublime connection
Drifting in the dream state.;
An ethereal union that began before flesh
Within infinite gravity;
Singularity.
My heart holds no words for you
for
They are so
Minute,
To small.
A word cannot envelope nor embody
Love
Nor can my heart hold this vastness,
This infinity.
The power in every beat,
Every thump of my heart
Resonates
To the farthest galaxy
In the dark
Dancing and vibrating
Within atoms themselves,
For even they know our names.
Yet it is not of anywhere perceivable.
As our feet step upon this ancient earth
Feel the vibrations. Hear the beat.
And on and on we go.
We know.
Fear so deep you tremble and hold yourself tight so as not to lose your bladder. Fear.
And you begin to lie to keep the peace.
The light nearly beat out of you by words,
open hand, back hand.
You lie.
Smile out the door,
No one knows.
No one knows why you jump with a start so easily. They tease, you laugh.
Always hoping no one knows your name.
(Please don’t say it.
Nothing good happens when you hear your name)
Freeze.
The unspoken understanding in trauma experienced between family members.
The ever unpredictable behavior of a parent.
The unprovoked attacks.
The silent body language used to communicate
Between those abused.
Speak in rhyme and riddle a code never shared beyond these walls.
The eyes,
The slight gestures unnoticeable to others
In moments of extreme panic.
What will happen next?
Don’t speak,
Don’t move,
I will take the hit, you move.
I will carry you again and again for i would rather bleed and bruise than watch you get beat.
The laughter when you are safe,
Nervous smiles of relief.
Heal and save your energy for the next unexpected round.
Even though you know it is coming
You keep this little light of hope………
No one talks of hell. You are so damn brave and no one knows.
And so you go by many names and it leaves confusion. Even when you tell them, they don’t remember and you believe it doesn’t matter anymore.
Silence.

Hold her name in your mouth.
Roll it around on your tongue;
Swallow it whole.
Now wake.
Breathe if you must.
Dry earth
Gets thirsty,
Now
Summoning the rain.
When I
Am parched
I whisper your name.
Here raindrops
Fall softly on the roof,
The sweet smell of damp leaves fills
The room,
And here I am
drowning
In
Thoughts of you.
There is a lump in my throat today
(Cannot seem to spit it out).
I used up all of my adrenaline
A long time ago.
(Fight or flight)
Everyone is in such a hurry here.
They speed up when the light is
Red
Just to slam on their brakes and
It makes no sense.
I long to return to the mountains
And hear the ravens call my name.
(They know me well)
Softly whisper my name
I need to remember
I need to recall
I have forgotten
The sound
Which once fell from
Passionate lips.
There remains
Nothing more than
Echoes
In my brain
Of hearts now vanished.
You
Traversed
Valley lows
And
Mountain highs,
Busy streets
And alley ways
Not knowing who you were.
Until
You thought they named you.
Now you are
Misplaced
For
You do not fit in a name.
I will not stand
Upon a mountain high
And scream for you.
I will whisper your name
And feel it roll off my tongue
And over my lips
Like a
Magic Spell.
Where it will
Scatter
Over the hills
And above the clouds.
You will hear it
In your heart
And sense the time is now.
Your soul knows why
And this will defy all
Logic.
The cold has left my bones.
The blood is flowing freely
In my chest.
Only love remains
From a summer past.
On a hopeless night,
In a desolate place,
You came to me.
We whispered our names
In such a way
Only
Our
Souls
Would
Understand.
Chole Into Diamonds 