I look back.
So many holes in my memory.
So many people i have been
Yet which am i?
All of these;
The memory,
The reality,
The dream.
Here and now,
Then and there.
The yet to come.
Feb20
Tag Archives: memory
Mar7
Atoms and Cells
There is this burning in my belly,
This aching in my breast.
I struggle to keep my heart contained
Within my chest.
It is just the thought of you,
For you are not even near.
It’s just my atoms
And cells
Retain
The body of you.
Come home.
My heart will not stay still much longer
For
It is not where it belongs.
It’s just
What I must endure
While I am
Imagining
You here.
I am
Aching and breathing.
I am
Aching and dreaming.
*choleintodiamonds* originally posted
October 2015
Oct15
Last Time
Black off the shoulder dress,
Patterned with little pink flowers.
My skin
Tan and sand brushed.
Last time I wore it was in Egypt.
A beautiful night, it was.
Clear and star filled.
I feel everything all at once when I look at.
Barefeet continued
Dancing long after they hurt.
Laughed and smiled so much;
People thought I was drunk.
It has a hole in it I never fixed,
I kept it anyway.
So there it hangs with a variety of other
Colorful memories.
Time to sew it up or let it go.
Apr13
Forget
It can happen
By midday.
You forget you had beautiful dreams
And a fantastic morning.
You might not recall that you have a wonderful
Life for a moment too
When your heart
Hurts.
Dec13
Trinkets
Little trinkets in my drawer;
My nightstand
Where i keep my most valuable
Treasures.
They would mean nothing to
Anyone else.
I put them out sometimes and reminisce.
What memory may be tugging at my heart?
What color am i feeling today?
Nostalgic
Or happy.
Maybe sad and missing someone,
Missing someplace.
Maybe i should toss them all out
And start over.
Apr19
Initial Gasp
Your photographic memory came to life
The moment you saw him
And those,
Those
Echoes of touch
Erupt inside your mind
Every time you
Close your eyes.
Palpitations resume.
Fingertips recall
Lips warm.
And senses remember first encounter,
Impressions from skin kissing skin.
Want
And the pull
Of
It all
Generating lack of gravity.
Yet
Where were you going after all?
Nothing existed before this merging,
Before the initial gasp.
Nov1
A Thousand Dreams
A thousand dreams
We held ransom
In the night.
A thousand stars
Fell to the ground
And scattered at our feet.
Some,
(In such haste to join us)
Burned themselves out in ecstasy.
And there we lay amongst them
Enraptured souls entwined.
Two lovers consumed
(Consumed as one)
By the light.
The stars were ours
And we were theirs.
(Oh but my darling we are the stars)
All other memory
Fades.
Aug5
Unraveling
I’m unraveling myself.
The
Pieces
In knots.
I got wound up so tight,
So confused.
So lost,
That I let slip from my memory
How to read
A
Clock.
Jun8
Magic
She knows what it feels like to be invisible.
To be in a room with hundreds
Of people
And,
Like the air,
They breathe her in not realizing
She is there.
Her heartbeat the passion of the music.
The cellos
The violins,
And the dance.
Her presence creating a magical trance
And strangers smile as she drifts by,
Not knowing why.
There is delight in their hearts
At the gentle brush
Of her hand as she passes through,
A mere whisper of a breeze.
Her aura
At the tip of their memory.
Something they long for entirely
But cannot quite reach.
A haunting memory
Of a desire to hold onto
Yet
Out of their grasp,
She slips away.
And they,
The strangers
Are left asking
One another
If anyone else sensed the
Magic
They cannot describe.
Chole Into Diamonds 