They tell me to be me in one breath,
Then lay out the rules on
How to be me in the next.
They tell me to be me in one breath,
Then lay out the rules on
How to be me in the next.
I cannot reach myself,
I keep running away.
Usually I can find
Myself
But not today.
For so many years I hid bits of myself.
I tucked
My favorite Legos in the floorboards,
In the house where the gun went off.
Hoping someday someone would find them and
Create something admirable.
I wrote my name in nooks
And secret places hoping someday
Someone would read me;
My book.
I placed my voice in a jar
And put it in a corner
Hoping someday
Someone would find it,
Open
It and hear me;
My song.
I am going back and collecting these bits of me
Myself.
For I know my worth now
And those bits are too lovely to keep hidden
In dark places;
Too lonely to wait any longer
Simply wishing to be found by another.
All of me for me.
Annihilation
Of
Ghosts.
A confrontation
Imploring.
Awaiting to come forth
Into realization.
Not a fight to the death.
Not a fight to win.
First met with hesitation
And predetermined defeat.
Ultimately cradling one another.
A taste of tenderness desired all the while.
Myself
Consoling haunting apparitions
I alone created.
Finding there was only love completely,
For they were always mine.
Me.
I can only move forward
Or stand in stillness
For even
The slightest
Step
Back
Will surely
Be
The death
Of me.