Fearful.
Hesitant to open
Up
And
Touch this sorrow,
The grief.
This love untethered to earth
Now.
Where does it go.
I only hope you knew;
You know
How your calm in the storm
Enveloped us.
Your beautiful mind and heart;
Wisdom whispered
And heard when we silenced ourselves.
Listening.
Your heartbeat rhythm now
Missing from this family chorus.
An emptiness in between
Unspoken.
Love swells shared in teary
laughter.
Missing your presence
We reach for one another and find you.
Love remains.
No need to prove
Your pain to me my love
For I have been listening.
I have heard your heartbeat through the
Static noise of this world
All along;
My heart replying in the realm of dreams;
An electric song in unison.
No time exists nor form
In the melding,
Only peace.
Let it be.
My heart slows.
The Elk and deer are grazing while the sun is dipping
Below the horizon.
I know shortly the fox will come scouting
And eagerly return to his den with a mouse
Clenched in his teeth.
The bunnies are nibbling on tender shoots and the Eagles have flown back to their nests.
The geese are relentless in their calls,
Honks echoing overhead
As the great crane swoops up and away;
All to return another day.
Listen to heartbeats,
Soulspeak.
We are all fluent in this language ,
That which the world keeps trying to drown out with artificial noise.
Be still.
Listen.
Moving in close,
His hair smells like wind and storms.
His skin feels like life.
Winter, spring, summer, fall
Bloom at once with a touch.
A smile.
Submerged in the song of our
Heartbeats.
Unison.
Harmony.
Strum;
A new tune begun.
I go to the other room
And in the quiet corner I
Check to make sure my heart is
Still beating.
I get dizzy when I am overwhelmed and begin to think I might be dreaming or not real any more.
A heartbeat means I am real right?
Or maybe someone else needs to check it and tell me I am real because i could be tricking myself.
They try to reach him (me)
But
They do not know how.
He is lost (I am lost) only in this realm;
Found out there beyond.
I see them (he does too)
They do not see us.
And his voice sounds like
Music, silence and heartbeats.
They only know words.
I walked on
And
I watched the
Eagles fly.
I hear the whoosh of the air
On their wings as they glide overhead.
The higher they go
The stronger my heartbeat.
And I heard the brush rustle
Nearby,
Turning just in time
To see 3 deer leaping into my path.
Alert and tentative.
For a moment I expect to see a predator on their heels.
But no.
And we gaze into each others eyes for what seems like time indefinite .
And i feel that whole lifetime of anxiety leave my bones.
Stillness fills my cells.
My mind clears and my heart swells.
Peace. I am as i am meant to be.
I find myself by the river where I immerse myself in nature’s song.
I become the water and the stones who mean
Each other no harm.
They merely add to the symphony.
As do I;
I know.
This is true.
Heartbeats stop
Teardrops
Drop.
The world keeps moving
On and on.
I am climbing.
I turn my back to the
Wind
And try to catch my breath.
I taste the blood
On my lips
From the hit
But I do not cry.
I will cry later.
For now
I keep on.
One step,
One breath,
One blink,
One heartbeat
At a time.
Chole Into Diamonds 