I don’t know if my heart can make anymore
Emotion.
I think the gears are permanently
Broken.
They are seized up
And frozen.
Searching for a current
To jolt them into
Rhythm.
When I call out in hope,
All I hear in response
Is
An echoing emptiness.
And here I return
To the red dirt.
Return to the stillness
In me.
To the place I first found peace.
And my soul does weep
As again
The sand does slip through my
Hands.
As the earth
Does settle my soul
With its beautiful Song.
The healing of time
Reawakens
My desire to climb
Back to the stars
And beyond.
Love and light,
Earth and air,
Combine to provide
The current so that I may glide
Higher and higher
To places and desires
Eternal,
Yet to be journeyed
By my heart.
Sometimes
These
Feelings creep to
The top,
Thin,
Sharp
Boundary
Of my heart
And they start to dominate.
They take over the air that I breathe
Corroding the whole of me.
It’s like a hazmat scene
Inside my soul
Unsafe for anyone to venture
And
Well,
Nobody knows.
So I retreat
Where I can do battle
Alone.
No other casualties
Allowed
You see.
I refuse to take
Anyone else
Down with me.
That hope that once lived inside,
And then one day their hearts met.
And she knew
That the empty space,
The one that could never be filled
Until that very moment,
The one that had been vacant
And aching since
The beginning of
Her memories,
Had been left so
Perfectly
Hollow
By the universe
Just for him
To abide
Absolutely.
I scribble it all on paper.
Sometimes in such a desperate
Frenzy
I cannot decipher it later.
At stop lights.
In bed.
At the movies in the dark.
A voice memo at the park.
At 3 o’clock in the morning
All these thoughts in my mind
Colliding in time.
Delving into
Emotions I don’t always get.
But I know I’m not the only one
On this planet
With nonstop
Voices in my head.
The few lines I have been brave enough to
Read
Aloud;
I have to stop and catch my breathe
To put life into the words.
The first time I
Hear them spoken
The fractured portions of me,
The passion and the fears
Through life and
Through the years
Stir the tears and they
Begin to flow.
For even I myself do not
Recognize
How deep these feelings
Move without restraint.
And the words uttered
With emotion
Sear the ragged edges
Of my heart.
Your name endures on my lips.
Let your fingers linger
On my skin.
Intoxicate me with
The rhythm of your heart.
Bury yourself in the
Unsung
Depths
Of a passion
Begun in the soul
Unknown
Until this moment.
Held in the heart,
An awakened
Secret waiting
For this spark
To ignite
And take on a life
Of its own.
In this cage it does rage.
In this cage it does weep.
In this cage it will never sleep.
In this cage I must keep
This beating
Heart
Of mine.
You lent me the beat of your heart
When I had forgotten how to make
My own.
You lent me your wings and offered strength
Until I could fly
Alone.
You brought light into my shadows
And I learned to love through the night.
You heard the sadness in my tears
And gave me love with all your might.
You played back to me my own melody
I had silenced so long ago.
And showed me where the world was.
I held it in my heart but did not know.
Chole Into Diamonds 