My dark honors my light,
My light honors my dark
And we come together
To mend,
To merge,
To heal,
To love.
I am one; whole.
I am.
I am one; love.
I am.
Nov9
Tag Archives: dark
Aug24
Utterance
She entered the dark night of her soul willingly.
Alone.
Now her spark and
unwavering light
she has become,
Emerging unshakable.
She became the stillness.
They can say whatever they wish as
It is all in their minds.
And these words of breath,
They disappear uppon utterance
Only held in the space of the mind if one so wishes.
So
Release
And find peace in
The being
Of
Self;
Holy.
Jan25
Blew Out
I have lost count the times I blew out my own candle,
to hide in the dark, to keep myself unseen.
But I did not know there were such lovely souls,
the seekers,
who found people like me
And let us be without criticizing.
Kindly,
Lovingly,
Softly they lit the way out,
Not a light to blinding nor a noise to frightening,
Allowing us time and space to
Re-emerge at our own pace,
In our own time.
I am ever grateful.
Oct26
Creak
I decide to get up.
My brain has been talking to me all night anyway.
It is very dark and I tiptoe
Trying to be quiet
But it is no use,
The old floors creak no matter how light my step.
The wind brings a comfort in its steady howl;
I am not alone after all in this darkness
In these early hours.
Jul9
Hidden
Trauma
Hides in your body
unknowingly swallowed
And it finds some cozy,
Safe place to hide
A muscle or tendon
And you
Think you have gotten
Under
Or over
It,
But
You neglected the hardest part,
Going through the depths of yourself to purge it.
Find it there
Gather it up and hold it there
In love
In patience.
The tension has been there long
Allow it to be.
These parts of you long for love.
Set yourself free and gaze into yourself
Allowing your love to soften and release
Into the stillness,
One at a time,
Each piece that has planted itself in you out of fear.
And honor your path to healing
For it is yours alone.
Oct9
I was taught to
Swallow my tears.
Keep them within,
Becoming bloated with grief.
My blood saturated with salt
Until
Solidified
Heart so heavy
And lungs drowned with self inflicted water,
I could no longer stand.
I could not absorb oxygen needed to keep warm nor fully breathe,
Could not pump blood through my own veins to live.
Not knowing that to cry was such strength
For those surrounding me
Saw it,
Claimed it as
Victory;
A winning of some kind to break another more than yourself.
I still cry in the dark.
I never said I was perfect.
Jun6
One of Them
You locked me in a room
Then turned off the circuit breakers leaving me
Alone in the dark.
You knew I was terrified of ghosts,
Turning up the music to drown out my cries.
Telling me the demons were waiting to
Devour me whole;
To take my soul.
You did not know that they would
Turn and take care of me.
You did not know my Warrior Ancestors were there and would teach me
That love is the spark within that never
Yields.
I was not alone.
I learned to dance with my Ancestors and our
Beauty created an indistinguishable fire
Within.
I learned a timeless courage
And smiled at the challenge you created.
Thank you.
For without you
I would have never experienced
All this firsthand.
People would have spoke of these things and I would
Have dismissed them as crazy.
Now I am one of them.
Sep16
Battle
The battle is real
Should i have a glass of wine
Or
Climb in the closet, shut the door and
Sit in the dark?
Teetering on the edge
Of laughter and screams.
Rocking to and fro.
I must remember why i
Am here.
I love so deep
But do not think i am so
Fragile.
My jaw has met fist amongst other things.
Shadows call even though there be
Light
And friendly faces on the street.
Apathy Creeping at my feet.
Once again I retreat from
The invisible forces.
Battling
Battling
With those formless thought shifters.
“Go away!” I say as my worth is not in
Their ungrateful hands.
I write truth on the wall.
I must remember why i am here.
I close my eyes once more and am
Taken to the red dirt
Where I kneel.
Home feels so far but there
It is in my heart. My heart.
How could I forget. Wallowing
In my fears.
I know why i am here.
I let them
Get in my head. I let them twist my mind.
Deplorable thoughts have no control.
Thoughts cannot condemn my soul.
I know why i am here.
Do i?
Jul17
Despair
He (she too) knows he is called strange
And beautiful in the same breath.
His (her) delight in life contagious
But then
Given time
And the right mix of elements
He (she does) crashes
And no words nor touch
Can reach him.
Blinded and numb.
He regresses.
He recoils.
(She turns within)
For no one can save him and he knows this.
They do not fathom the depths
Of despair.
(She knows)
He can hold his breath longer
For he knows at the surface
The darkness waits unbidden.
It always waits
Unbidden and unseen by others.
(They do not see it
They do not feel it)
And they lose patience
Going on their way
To fill their own void for they cannot hold their
breath any longer.
(She is still there)
And he resurfaces.
Returns from the untime
To be aware.
Skin tender, jaw tight
Legs jelly
And goes on.
Invites others from empty tables to join him.
Holds others when their arms are too full
And smiles
Because he is thankful they have not swam so
deep into the darkness as he.
(He sees remnants of shadows on her eyes)
Mar2
Known
I have known dark and cold things
They have come to visit
But I never let them stay
Chole Into Diamonds 