Many hours
Even music cannot fill the darkness.
So in silence I sit,
In silence
I am full.
Many days my heart is too heavy,
My sight barricades itself
I have not the strength to lift
My
Pen and place it to paper
Or my eyes to sunlight.
I sit in darkness.
In darkness I rest.
And I sink
Beyond my knees to earth.
Beyond touch of hand
Or restless thoughts
Where I lie.
For I do not even whisper there,
I do not not even cry.
I tremble internally
At your touch.
My body sings,
It cries.
I cannot speak.
Your name is
My heartbeat
Itself.
I close my eyes
I feel you there.
Every atom of you
Merging with mine.
And here is bliss
Beyond any
Knowing we have
Felt.
The endless ache is no longer.
I am learning to breathe
Again
Eyes to the sky.
I am learning to breathe again
Eyes to the sky.
I have stopped asking why.
Embracing these feelings,
Allowing myself to cry.
Allowing myself to laugh.
I am learning to breathe again.
Soul to the sky.
He’s the in between.
Born on the cusp.
He is winter in spring.
A flower blooming in the frigid cold,
Not sure where to go…..
He shines a light all his own.
Smiles to share yet
He cries alone.
On gilded wings she’s watched
Him fly too close to the sun.
So here she waits
Ready to catch him,
Ready to hold him
When he falls.
Wings singed;
Heart-tired he falls heavy.
She sings softly now
Cradling him in the in between.
Sharing her breath until he can
Breathe on his own once again.
I dreamt a dream of times past;
Of you and I.
And I was overwhelmed with
Emotion.
I began to weep.
How can my heart be light yet heavy at once?
Thinking to capture you
I reach for pen and paper.
To write you down.
To read you forever.
But,
The ink had run dry.
To tired and weary to rise from my bed
I kept the memories
Lit inside me.
I placed my head on my pillow
And went back to dreaming instead .
I cried for you
The tears you denied yourself.
Knowing what you had been through.
What you will endure.
Because I know the face you keep from the sun.
I know the heart you keep undone.
The face I have always loved.
The heart I have always loved.
Always.
You cry out loud
And they all come running.
Instead
She stifles herself.
Covers her own mouth.
Maybe she is too proud.
It is all relative.
Life.
And what we perceive as disaster.
Our minds comprehending the thick and thin
From different angles.
Maybe she finds herself not good enough.
Her worries
Less worthwhile.
She has held back so far,
The cry.
Thinking she would use it only
In her last effort
To hold the velvet curtains
Open.
But perhaps
She will slip
Into the
Silver twilight
With only a
Sigh.
The birds call to me once more.
“See child there is life all around you.
Why then do you cry in loneliness?”
She stood in the kitchen and looked out the window.
She gasped at what she saw.
Her shoulders dropped and her arms went limp.
Hanging her head and turning her gaze to the floor
She whispered softly to herself,
“I just don’t think I can do it anymore.
I
Cannot make it
Through
Another
Storm.”
A silent, lonely tear rolled down her cheek.
Then she felt his hand on her shoulder.
“My precious Angel,
Why do you cry?”
“Look at me here,” she replied.
“My clothes are all tattered and torn. I am a mess and still weak from the last storm.”
He stood in front of her then
And with a loving hand lifted her chin so
He could meet her eyes and softly said,
“When the storm comes, and we know it will,
Whatever you do this time just hold me tight and
Don’t
Let
Go
Like you have done before.
Together we can love through anything.
You don’t have to stand alone like you always do.
You have never had to do it by yourself,
But you instinctively let go.
Don’t let go.
Hold on.
Hold on.
Hold on through the storm.”
She only comes out
When it’s
Storming.
The raindrops embrace
Her tears.
She only comes out
When it’s
Raining.
The thunder hides
Her cries
As she trembles in
Fear.
She only smiles
At clouds
And butterflies.
Likes the sun in her eyes.
And now
She’s standing at the bus stop
Laughing out loud.
You see,
She knows no one else
Can
See the Angels
Keeping company
With the
Lonely people
As they
Pass her by.
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