Old photographs
Scattered
Throughout time from wall
To hand
To trunk
Eventually find strangers staring at them in
Thrift shops.
Who will be the last person to remember the
Sound
Of your voice?
Old photographs
Scattered
Throughout time from wall
To hand
To trunk
Eventually find strangers staring at them in
Thrift shops.
Who will be the last person to remember the
Sound
Of your voice?
Sometimes I reassure myself
Out loud
Because I need a voice
Louder than
My Brain
To interrupt my
Runaway thoughts.
You do not have to work so hard for love.
To beg, to plead.
(I say to myself)
To apologize for things you have not done just to
Keep the peace.
To prove your worthiness.
(Once upon a time I too did these things)
It took a long hard fall for me to learn
(I learn more everyday)
I cannot measure how much I love myself by
How much anyone else loves me.
(I remind myself)
I am worthy of my own unconditional love.
I cherish a sunburnt country for the red dirt did
Cradle and heal my spirit.
I have felt the enduring passion of my English garden
And I forever keep the
Mountains of the far north in my soul.
I have felt the caress of oceans from east to west in my heart.
The southern sun has kissed my skin with hope.
They have all given what I need in moments,
In those times when I did not know what I was in search of.
I love them all and owe them everything;
I am owned by none.
I rise each day and journey on in trust.
The lion does not roar just to listen to itself.
Nor the hawk call
Or the squirrel chitter,
The birds twitter
Or the whale sing.
The flower does not grow to gaze into its own
Reflection,
Nor the river flow to greet itself.
Sing sweet. Sing slow to me.
In the sun,
In the night.
Keep tapping on my heart.
We get so confused,
So lost and overwhelmed.
Let so many doubts fill our eyes
When we know
The truth.
The truth.
We get so afraid
Of rejection, of love.
But this life, this most beautiful life
Live with your heart open,
Love.
We are all skin and bone here
On this plane,
This reality.
But love,
Love is in all planes.
It is the only
Steadfast reality.
Love, Love, Love.
I told you my secrets.
They were in my eyes and
My sighs,
In the pause of my breath
When you touched me.
In the unfaltering beat of my heart
As you lay your head upon my chest.
Now you know.
Now you know.
My mind is playing the
“You can’t” game.
The
“You aren’t” ,
“You are too this or too that” game.
It is exhausting these climbs and the cliffs.
I fall.
Continually crawling back up.
Gravel on my knees,
Vines and thorns around my throat.
Reminding myself
Not to struggle so much
Against them
For
They just dig deeper into my flesh.
I close my eyes.
Exhale.
Count to three and open my eyes again.
I dreamt I was a
Little girl again,
Wearing a white prairie dress.
I came upon a lone house in the countryside
Surrounded by beautiful trees,
But the sky was dark and i was alone.
I entered the house,
Something told me it was home.
It was dingy and empty and falling apart,
Fear began to grip my heart.
I started calling my sisters name only to hear my footsteps in return.
I thought maybe to lay upon the floor and look no more
When down the stairs she
Came dressed just like me,
(The only exception being her hair of red and my hair
Of black.)
She took me by the hand and led me to
The door.
We went outside to sit and play in the dirt,
The sky now a dusty brown.
I was fearful but felt comfort in her presence.
She stopped playing suddenly and looked me in the eye to whisper
“My mommy does not like me.”
To which I replied,
“Neither does mine.”
Oh sister
My sister,
My sister how I love thee.