I Say to Myself

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You do not have to work so hard for love.

To beg, to plead.

(I say to myself)

To apologize for things you have not done just to

Keep the peace.

To prove your worthiness.

(Once upon a time I too did these things)

It took a long hard fall for me to learn

(I learn more everyday)

I cannot measure how much I love myself by

How much anyone else loves me.

(I remind myself)

I am worthy of my own unconditional love.

Journey On

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I cherish a sunburnt country for the red dirt did

Cradle and heal my spirit.

I have felt the enduring passion of  my English garden

And I forever keep the

Mountains of the far north in my soul.

I have felt the caress of oceans from east to west in my heart.

The southern sun has kissed my skin with hope.

They have all given what I need in moments,

In those times when I did not know what I was in search of.

I love them all and owe them everything;

I am owned by none.

I rise each day and journey on in trust.

Sing

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Sing sweet. Sing slow to me.

In the sun,

In the night.

Keep tapping on my heart.

We get so confused,

So lost and overwhelmed.

Let so many doubts fill our eyes

When we know

The truth.

The truth.

We get so afraid

Of rejection, of love.

But this life, this most beautiful life

Live with your heart open,

Love.

We are all skin and bone here

On this plane,

This reality.

But love,

Love is in all planes.

It is the only

Steadfast reality.

Love, Love, Love.

My Mind

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My mind is playing the

“You can’t” game.

The 

“You aren’t” ,

“You are too this or too that” game.

It is exhausting these climbs and the cliffs.

I fall.

Continually crawling back up.

Gravel on my knees,

Vines and thorns around my throat.

Reminding myself

Not to struggle so much

Against them

For

They just dig deeper into my flesh.

I close my eyes.

Exhale.

Count to three and open my eyes again.

Sister

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I dreamt I was a

Little girl again,

Wearing a white prairie dress.

I came upon a lone house in the countryside

Surrounded by beautiful trees,

But the sky was dark and i was alone.

I entered the house,

Something told me it was home.

It was dingy and empty and falling apart,

Fear began to grip my heart.

I started calling my sisters name only to hear my footsteps in return.

I thought maybe to lay upon the floor and look no more

When down the stairs she

Came dressed just like me,

(The only exception being her hair of red and my hair

Of black.)

She took me by the hand and led me to

The door.

We went outside to sit and play in the dirt,

The sky now a dusty brown.
I was fearful but felt comfort in her presence.

She stopped playing suddenly and looked me in the eye to whisper

“My mommy does not like me.”

To which I replied,

“Neither does mine.”
Oh sister

My sister,

My sister how I love thee.