When I was ready; when I had had enough,
I began to dig deep and face some memories I had tried not to keep. Some parts of me had been in hiding or dressed in disguise;
Pretending to be invisible.
It took longer than I thought it might.
I had to hold myself accountable for my own part and went back to the start.
I did not realize how far away from myself I was
Until I started retracing the steps back to myself.
Healing.
As long as we believe
Karma
To be a
Means of getting even
We
Perpetuate
Madness.
Originally posted @ *choleintodiamonds*2016
And this unwavering yearning for you
Resonates in my blood and my bones
As i wander;
You are here
In the air
And i breathe.
We lie
Entangled
Still as trees
Warmth between us tended and
Flowing
Naturally,
Soothing these aches and the pains of the heart and mind in this dimension.
Scars forgotten as hope permeates within and
Without.
A surge of all that was purged as a new dawn begins.
Serenity.
You did not create beautiful things in me;
After burning what is left to ash
I am transforming what has become of me
Through visions born of trauma.
Beauty and strength.
Experience and forgiveness,
Patience and love.
Rebirth and
Recreation.
Remember this;
Even the teeniest,
Tiniest
Seed
Can start a wild flower dream
Or a forest deep,
Keep faith and allow grace as you go.
Spread love evermore.
Hot coffee in my hand.
Through fog
Christmas lights glow
As the snow begins
A gentle decent,
Dancing with the breeze
In the air.
A farewell to the sky
As the snowflake kisses
My skin, dissolving.
On to my morning destination
Loving the frigid sensation.
My senses now fully
Invigorated.
The universe is working in your favor
With you for the highest good at all times.
Whether
You are certain or uncertain,
Whether you are stuck or flowing,
Whether you are happy or sad.
When you feel strong, when you feel weak.
You are cradled in unwavering infinite love.
Open and receive.
And her mind,
It goes blank
Before you can blink.
She is smiling
All the while hating herself.
And they keep talking
And talking
And she keeps laughing.
And she excuses herself to the bathroom
Where
She stares in the mirror
Wondering if she is really here.
Why all this noise?
Just noise
Coming from mouths who don’t care
What a heart beat is.
This air;
The air that leaves her lungs
As she whispers your name,
As you press against her
And hold her steady.
As you take her where she needs to go
Without hesitation.
We sit in the quiet and
Hear the stars resonate
In our very bones.
It’s all ok.
Breathe in unison.
You don’t even need to say
It is all okay.
We will keep going round
And round like this
Until
Each of us accept in our hearts and minds
Completely
That everyone carries
Burdens of the heart unseen which
Our minds cannot comprehend.
Hear the message in the silence between
What you believe you hear in words;
See the stillness between movements.
Therein lies communication of the soul.
Love.
Up on tippy toes I try to peek
Over hills and mountains high.
Try as I might I cannot see the other side.
I have to climb myself
One step at a time
And understand
This journey is mine;
Created with all of us in mind
To intertwine with those chosen
In this
Grand design.
To uplift and add endless love
As best We can.
I climb and rest,
Climb and rest knowing I am doing my best
With every breath.
Chole Into Diamonds 