In this cage it does rage.
In this cage it does weep.
In this cage it will never sleep.
In this cage I must keep
This beating
Heart
Of mine.
Jan13
Jan12
Expectations
So who sold you that neat little
Blueprint
For the perfectly shaped box of
Expectations
You built?
You thought you followed the Directions and built it right
Now you cannot figure why
You are living such an empty
Life.
Is it going well dragging it around like A ball and chain?
Did you think you would play it like a simple Game?
Do all of the disappointments
Have you crawling around
On the ground?
I know you tried to fix it up
In pretty ribbons
And bows.
I hope you have
Finally figured it out.
I hope you know.
You need to smash it baby.
Drop it on the floor
And kick it out the door.
Life’s a roller coaster
You have to let go.
Break your
Expectations
Limitations.
Take a running leap
And
Soar.
Jan12
Always
Catch my tears
with your cheeks
As our lips
They meet.
Inhale
My breath
Into your depths
And don’t forget
The path your
heart drifts
Is no longer alone.
Memories of
the soul
Always
Return
Home.
Jan11
Above The Chaos
I am standing here
I can hear
Your
Heartbeat loud and
Clear.
Above the chaos
Above the confusion in my brain
And I wonder
If you can hear mine too
Because it sounds to me
Like they are one and the same.
Jan10
Unknown To You
Unknown to you,
The depths you have stirred.
The fire you have ignited in my bones.
Unknown to you,
The longing that was my company.
The emptiness I called home.
Unknown to you,
Without touch
You have aroused
A sleeping soul.
Jan9
My Shadows
I will throw the shadows of me onto you.
The darkest parts.
If you are
Brave enough to
Come close.
In the haunted passages of
My heart you will find
Rusty rails and broken stairs.
With every step
You must take care.
You will have to
Feel
Your way tenderly with eyes
Blind.
Other senses necessary
To find the cracks and hidden
Retreats inside.
And
Sometimes
The silence is deafening.
Once caught in the black
You may choose to never
Come back.
Or you may endlessly roam,
Making these infinite
Mysteries of me
Your
Home.
Jan9
I’ll Keep It Real
I can’t tell you where to go
I can’t tell you what to feel
But I’ll keep it real.
Jan8
Innermost Longing
Here I sit.
I cannot sleep yet I am exhausted.
I want to laugh.
I want to cry.
I want to curl up in the closet.
I want to run beside the ocean.
I want to scream.
I want to sit atop a mountain and feel the wind in my hair.
Feel it stroke my face.
I want to dance and laugh and sing until I collapse.
I want to forget.
I want to stand tall, walk forward
And never look back.
I want my heart back in one piece.
I want to sleep and dream and I want to wake up feeling safe with a smile in my heart.
I want to trust.
I want to let go and love,
Hold nothing back.
I want to lean and rest my soul.
I want to breathe.
I want to break the surface.
I want to revive my heart.
I want to give a piece of me without regret.
I want to break the chains my heart and mind have bound me in.
I want to sigh.
I want to cut the anchor and soar.
I want to speak softly and be heard.
I want to lie in a field of flowers and watch the clouds drift by and listen to the wind caress the trees.
I want to believe in myself.
I want to be.
Jan8
Breathe
You make me feel beautiful
You make me feel like I am real
Your eyes look into me
They don’t look right through me
Others see me breathing
When you know I am only holding my breath
Waiting, waiting, waiting to breathe
Your hands reach out and gently touch me
While others go by without even
Noticing
Noticing I am
Waiting, waiting, waiting to breathe
Jan7
Maybe
Maybe
You did not know.
Or perhaps you
did not listen
To the true depth of sadness
In her voice.
The exaggerated laugh.
Maybe you felt you had said all there was to say.
Maybe you looked away
From the broken heart in her smile
The silent plea
In her tenderness towards others.
The quiet tears
In the reach of
her fingertips.
And now you’re left
Shaking your head
And wondering
Why
Sometimes even
Angels
Cannot save the flesh and bone
Of a soul
Who longs so desperately
To go home.
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