My fixer heart.
So busy trying to keep the peace in my Surroundings,
In other people,
That I was left confused at
The war raging in me.
against myself
Slowly
I have learned to do the opposite.
Keep the peace in me
And all else follows.
Sep5
Category Archives: poetry
Sep4
Internally
I hold internally
These monsters
That scratch and tear
At my insides.
I have held them tight
In hopes of their suffocation.
Now I hemorrhage instead.
I believed these things were holding me Prisoner.
Keeping me in the dark.
Obscuring my sight.
When it is
I
Who keep them.
Afraid to be alone.
Afraid to be free.
For there have been times
They have escaped me;
I beckoned them return.
Now my strength grows weary
And my body is strained
In holding them.
My eyes tire so in this self imposed darkness,
My skin left longing for the soft caress of
Light.
This unhappiness I wear
From time to time makes me forget
All that is well.
And these monsters,
They wish to be free
From
Me.
Sep3
Swiftly
Love is too precious
And life too short a gift
To let time go by so
Swiftly
Without seeing your face
My child
Sep3
Darkest Dark
Shedding tears.
The darkest of dark in my chest
This night.
Moonlight casts no shadow
From wall to wall.
I will not give up.
I will not give in.
Sweet slumber comes to cradle me.
She takes me to fields of lavender where
I dance until I am weary.
Elation fills my veins.
She flies me to the very mountain tops
Amongst the clouds where I fill my lungs once more;
Fill my eyes with curiousity .
I play in the deepest seas of blue.
I sink,
I float.
It does not matter here for my struggles are lost elsewhere in these dreams tonight.
She gives me what I need;
Sweet dreams.
And in the morning I lift my gaze to the sun.
I thank my dreams for keeping me company
And leave them under my pillow for the
Day awaits me now.
Sep1
Ebb and Flow
Morning.
Up before sunrise.
Dancing in the dark.
Playing my records
In the kitchen,
A few songs on repeat.
(Tears dried in my dreams)
One day flowing into the next.
Loving.
Learning.
Growing.
Holding on to this,
Letting go of that.
Things that must be said,
Memories wished to be forgotten.
Ebb and flow.
This I know;
I woke breathing this morning.
Aug30
Ablaze
You.
With a glance.
Fingertips brush so light.
Set my whole
World ablaze.
Burning sun;
White night moon.
I cannot control the rythm
Of my own heart.
Oh
Pull me into your electric storm.
I will breathe once more
When I feel you
Take hold of me.
Aug29
Remember
Each and every one of us,
We are human.
Remember that.
Aug25
I Will Stay
Oh my friend
All our lives
(Since i can remember)
Your heart has ached
And try as i might
(in this life that we have known)
I cannot carry the weight
For you
(I realize this as we grow old)
Though I tried when we were young
(Helplessly)
I keep
hope.
I am here
(In the silence, through the tears)
And here i will stay
By your side
(Through the years)
Aug22
Time
Like a phantom
Time has
Stolen itself away
I always thought i would return home
Whenever i like
Only now
mom and dad
Are both long gone
Still i step upon familiar streets
Still i walk barefoot
The grass reminds me
unspoken hurts
unspoken love
Laughter echoes in my heart
Cigarette smoke
Clouds my eyes
I see them there
Amongst the fall leaves.
Fallen dreams
So quickly tossed about
By
Children playing tag
With no
Attention
Paid to time.
And i smile.
Aug18
Untouched
And so there they sit.
Loved and adored
yet
Loved and untouched.
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