Summer light swirling in your eyes;
Translucent.
Entrancing.
You look up,
Grin at me and continue reading aloud.
Your voice like music
Stirring an uncontrolled symphony of feelings In my belly;
Ecstatic thoughts in my mind.
And the breeze caresses skin.
The birds sing
And we are lost once again
In a place only we know.
Daddy’s crying
Momma’s lying
What am I supposed to do?
My little heart is searching
For a simple smile or two.
My little hands can’t fix it,
That’s what band aides
Usually do.
………………….
Just Remember
Come November
Whatever has come and gone,
This little girl
Loved
Her Momma and Daddy
All along.
………………..
The gun was fired.
Momma’s tired.
Daddy doesn’t know what went wrong.
Seems they thought they were all grown up
When they were only playing house
All along.
Fill in a couple of bullet holes.
Pretend they are all gone.
We’ll keep singing your pretty song.
Daddy holds on to the past,
Momma’s drinking makes it last.
Once the gun was smoking
We were left holding
Illusions in the air.
…………..
Come November
Just remember
*originally published December 2013
Choleintodiamonds
Trying to release regrets;
Embrace with grace all of the beauty that has come.
I think i have hung on long enough to the Ugly Feelings.
“You always get better,
it always passes,”
I tell myself
Reassuringly
As I tuck myself into bed.
Become stillness as all given of you
In
Love
Flows through you.
No reciprocation
Desired from anyone.
Therefore,
You
Are free
And
As what you give flows unencumbered
The receivers are
Free as well.
And you continue to be
Free flowing in stillness.
Never a need to refill for you are
Never empty,
Never full.
Free flowing through atoms and cells.
Love.
And I never want to
Hurt like that again
So
I have been fearful,
So very afraid.
One step
And I hesitate, my feet placed lightly
As I hold my breath before
Pressing forward completely;
And wait.
Eyes wide open,
Telling my tears to stay tucked away,
To wait.
Wait a little longer.
It is not in my head nor irrational
For those things did happen leaving bruises on heart on skin,
Not happening merely once or twice.
Over and over.
In psyche I go deep.
Begin once again.
One step forward and breath.
Wait and observe, Listen and feel.
Muscles coiled around heart ready to retreat.
Consciously release tension;
Release grip on self.
Exhaustion sets in every muscle.
Stopping. Resting.
Replenish heart and mind
And begin again
With tomorrow’s sunrise.
Beauty and joy seep into depths slowly and lovingly
Replacing anxiety.
Sweet dreams start to outnumber nightmares.
Ever so tenderly reanimating hope.
Revive.
Art answers to no one.
It is untold;
Untethered
And free.
Natural when we release all
Preconceived notions
That have taken root
In our
Minds.
Just like love.
Everyone is made of fire.
Some have had their flames doused by self
Doubt,
Or snuffed out by careless actions and words.
They have forgotten the heat
Of their soul.
Let us help remind
Them
They hold the kindling.
Eternal embers remain within.
Let us help one another restart
Our bonfire hearts.
*originally posted October 2016 @choleintodiamonds*
An entangled eternity;
We.
The knowing remains unchanged
Rebirth
After rebirth,
The innate
Pull certain.
Silent draw within the absolute core of our
Being,
In the very stillness.
Omnipresent beginnings,
Closer. Closer still.
Close your eyes and become
Aware.
Breathe in to
Stoke the flames.
Exhale and become the fire.
Kitty comes
And forcefully pushes
His head against my hand,
Knocking the phone out of my grasp
And onto the floor.
Purring loudly;
He has his way of
Reminding me where
Love and
The real world are
Waiting patiently,
Steadfast and true.
Your Smile
Is the healing balm when my heart is weary,
When I feel I cannot go on.
Chole Into Diamonds 