I
Sat in the jungle
And disolved into the stillness.
Jaguar approached me
And pierced my skin.
As blood fell to the jungle floor
She said,
“This is the blood of everyone.
The anguish of your mothers
And fathers
Has already been shed.
You are anew.
You choose to carry pain from the past
Because you believe
You are supposed to.
Release it.
It is not yours to carry.
Your ancestors
And all of the universe
Wish for you to
Let it go.”
I lay my head upon your chest.
Each heartbeat I feel upon my cheek.
Strong and steady it speaks
A message meant for me
Hidden
In every
Rhythmic beat.
A serene soul whisper.
“I am love.
“You are loved.”
Plant the seed.
Be the the sun.
Be the water.
Be the one who tends to
The soul in need.
Be the one to lend a hand
And help
The weary stand.
On this day I am feeling melancholy.
I cannot speak.
It is as if my hands are lead
And my feet do dread
Every step.
My eyes have forgotten how sweetly
They can see.
Even though the sun rises to
Caress my heart and remind me
I am alive.
My body screams
As it talks to itself
Misinterpreting every word.
My breath does not delight in the pleasure of
Breathing
This day.
The birds call to me once more.
“See child there is life all around you.
Why then do you cry in loneliness?”
Our love cannot be
Written in a poem.
The mere thought
Of it makes my heart tremble.
It is those words left unspoken,
Unwritten
Floating free
Between the ink and paper.
It is omnipresent
Yet
Cannot be possessed.
Ah
But I breathe.
I hear a sigh escape your lips
As you see the colors too.
As you see the wind pulling the leaves from the trees.
They do their final dance for us.
And they return to the
Earth
That nourished them.
Some ride the wind so delicately.
Others seem out of control
As if fighting the pull of gravity.
Ultimately they all fall.
We endure.
I feel the warmth of your skin
As
You move closer.
This knowing between us,
It is time to hold each other.
This sorrow,
We must let it envelope us
If we are to ever love through winter.
All
Of everything
Is pulling me to you
And I am finding it hard to breathe.
I am drowning in dreams of you
And I do not wish to come up
For
Air.
I feel you fumbling with my heart
When you think
I am not looking.
Chole Into Diamonds 