I stop and take a look at the world
In wonder.
I
Take a deep breath.
In that little moment
I
Believe I might turn into
Stardust,
Or
Glowing
Moonlight,
And drift away.
I stop and take a look at the world
In wonder.
I
Take a deep breath.
In that little moment
I
Believe I might turn into
Stardust,
Or
Glowing
Moonlight,
And drift away.
In deep water I do tread,
The beginning of my doubt.
Fingers playing on the surface
As I watch the ripples multiply.
Second guessing my decision
To swim in over my head
Instead of waiting free from
Danger
On the
Shore.
You thought you could keep yourself locked up inside.
Hidden from love.
Hidden from life.
But that was when you were with the others.
Before.
When you were kept from the warmth of the sun
And the caress of the moon.
Now,
You have opened your eyes.
Now,
You have tasted love,
Tasted life.
You ran against the forces
Within yourself
And won.
It has begun
And there is no going back.
I want to get lost for good.
I want to become
Completely undone
With
You.
I
Place my feet on the floor.
One step at a time,
I make it to the door.
The ghosts in my mind try to tell me
It’s no good.
I’m no good.
Back to square one.
Wonder what I would have done
Differently.
But it’s no good.
I’m no good.
I have never thought
I was any good.
I got so far.
I got so close.
How was I to know
Those words you spoke out loud
Would leave me trampled
In the crowd
Of
Ghosts
In my mind.
In my bed.
They are punishing me in my head.
And now I am trying to remember what it is you told
Me
I
Had done that made
Me
This way.
No good.
We are
The sum
Of continuous
Beginnings.
Transparent
Glass beads
Litter the floor.
The only tangible evidence
Of a conversation
Gone bad.
If you look down
Upon entering the room
Your eyes might catch a glimpse of them.
You might step on them
Unexpectedly.
Most likely,
I imagine,
You will just pick them up and feel
Their smoothness on your skin
As you marvel at their
Brilliance,
The way others always have.
On any given day,
I begin to spin out of control.
The gravity of the world becoming too much.
And the blood rushes from
The
Distant
Extremities
Of my body
To the
Core
Of me,
Desperate
To save my
Life.
There is a glint,
A hint in her eyes
Of what is yet to
Come.
And so,
You choose to stay.
And so,
You begin to breathe again
Without
Thinking.