So many hearts
Beating around this world
Some fast
Some slow
Some out of control.
So many bodies longing for warmth
Reaching
And grasping
For someone to hold.
We pack it all up
When we step out
The door
And roleplay
And laugh
Like we don’t feel alone.
In this cage it does rage.
In this cage it does weep.
In this cage it will never sleep.
In this cage I must keep
This beating
Heart
Of mine.
So who sold you that neat little
Blueprint
For the perfectly shaped box of
Expectations
You built?
You thought you followed the Directions and built it right
Now you cannot figure why
You are living such an empty
Life.
Is it going well dragging it around like A ball and chain?
Did you think you would play it like a simple Game?
Do all of the disappointments
Have you crawling around
On the ground?
I know you tried to fix it up
In pretty ribbons
And bows.
I hope you have
Finally figured it out.
I hope you know.
You need to smash it baby.
Drop it on the floor
And kick it out the door.
Life’s a roller coaster
You have to let go.
Break your
Expectations
Limitations.
Take a running leap
And
Soar.
Catch my tears
with your cheeks
As our lips
They meet.
Inhale
My breath
Into your depths
And don’t forget
The path your
heart drifts
Is no longer alone.
Memories of
the soul
Always
Return
Home.
I am standing here
I can hear
Your
Heartbeat loud and
Clear.
Above the chaos
Above the confusion in my brain
And I wonder
If you can hear mine too
Because it sounds to me
Like they are one and the same.
Unknown to you,
The depths you have stirred.
The fire you have ignited in my bones.
Unknown to you,
The longing that was my company.
The emptiness I called home.
Unknown to you,
Without touch
You have aroused
A sleeping soul.
I will throw the shadows of me onto you.
The darkest parts.
If you are
Brave enough to
Come close.
In the haunted passages of
My heart you will find
Rusty rails and broken stairs.
With every step
You must take care.
You will have to
Feel
Your way tenderly with eyes
Blind.
Other senses necessary
To find the cracks and hidden
Retreats inside.
And
Sometimes
The silence is deafening.
Once caught in the black
You may choose to never
Come back.
Or you may endlessly roam,
Making these infinite
Mysteries of me
Your
Home.
I can’t tell you where to go
I can’t tell you what to feel
Here I sit.
I cannot sleep yet I am exhausted.
I want to laugh.
I want to cry.
I want to curl up in the closet.
I want to run beside the ocean.
I want to scream.
I want to sit atop a mountain and feel the wind in my hair.
Feel it stroke my face.
I want to dance and laugh and sing until I collapse.
I want to forget.
I want to stand tall, walk forward
And never look back.
I want my heart back in one piece.
I want to sleep and dream and I want to wake up feeling safe with a smile in my heart.
I want to trust.
I want to let go and love,
Hold nothing back.
I want to lean and rest my soul.
I want to breathe.
I want to break the surface.
I want to revive my heart.
I want to give a piece of me without regret.
I want to break the chains my heart and mind have bound me in.
I want to sigh.
I want to cut the anchor and soar.
I want to speak softly and be heard.
I want to lie in a field of flowers and watch the clouds drift by and listen to the wind caress the trees.
I want to believe in myself.
I want to be.
Chole Into Diamonds 